This God—his way is perfect;
the word of the Lord proves true;
he is a shield for all those who take refuge in him.
I know in my heart God’s way is perfect, but often times, its a war in my head that the way I think life should go is perfect. Sometimes I’m so blindsided by my own thoughts and plans that when God changes them, I get upset. I trust Him. I don’t trust him. It’s a war inside. And then, after battling with God over a season of time of why did life have to happen this way, something changes, and suddenly things make sense! Hindsight is always the clearest. Looking back, I can see why God changed my plans, and how God used that to draw me more to himself with a deeper understanding of Him and how good He really is. You realize if you had gone the way you planned, you would have never had the blessings of going God’s way. Then, you find yourself thanking Him for His master plan and asking forgiveness for your doubt. As every year of my life goes on, I am never where I planned I would be. But I know beyond a shadow of a doubt, I am where God planned me to be. My heart’s cry becomes more and more to be, “Jesus, please help me to trust You are good no matter what happens!”
I am ashamed at how often I have gotten angry and doubtful at God when my life takes unexpected turns. But Jesus, with His loving father’s heart, has never turned me away when I come running back to Him. It doesn’t matter how many times we have run away, God is always willing to take us back.
Often times, what causes doubt of God is my past hurts and disappointments. Rather than dwelling on God’s faithfulness, I dwell on old wounds. I become so consumed with the hurt, I lose sight of Hope. Some wounds seem to impossible for God to heal, or it’s been years and He doesn’t seem to be moving quick enough to restore that which was lost. But it is in those times that I have to take hold of and cling to for dear life, the promises of God.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
God is not out to get me. He is not out to ruin my life. People have hurt me, tried to destroy my family. Anger, bitterness, unforgiveness and jealousy have tried to control and dominate my life. But Jesus, is the only one who saves me and gives me Hope!
Trust in the Lord, and do good;
dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.[b]
4 Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
5 Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him, and he will act.
6 He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,
and your justice as the noonday.
7 Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him;
fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way,
over the man who carries out evil devices!